I’ve always said, ‘Work I can handle. It’s the people that I can’t.’
This is seriously like an understatement right now. Nothing rings truer than that and my current state of mind.
November has been a very trying time for me. When i originally said, ‘Nope, i don’t think it’s personal.’ I take it all back.
The last time I’ve been screamed at, spoken to rudely and bullied completely was when I first joined the industry. I’m sure my friends have heard me mentioned that person before. The one that said,’Do u look into the mirror to see how disgusting u look before u leave the house on a daily basis?’
It’s really not as bad now. I mean, at least the screaming does not consist of personal attacks like that. I still believe that no one else can beat that crazy.
But I’ll be lying to myself if I said I’m not upset.
I am.
But it’s more like a zen type of upset. I’m not as riled up as I usually would. Maybe it’s because to a certain degree, I pity the shouter/screamer. Or maybe I really don’t see a point why I need to react.
But I still don’t like it. Who does?
I’ve gotten all kinds of advice on how to handle this… Some are hilariously funny (and consist of what i should do) whilst some are simply damn sweet (mainly what they want to do).
I’ve gotten ‘gimme name! I go voodoo them!’, I’ve gotten offers from friend who said she will pin needles and slam her shoes on them.. Either that or get some of those aunties under the bridges in HK to help me curse them.
And I’ve gotten silly picture of friends in thick gothic makeup (taken a couple of yrs ago during one of our D&D) and told to blow it up and put it up at my desk as protection- don’t mess with Ewey.
I do love my protective friends.
However, I’m going to do nothing about it.
For now.
I just wanna constantly remind myself, I will not stoop to their level. I’m bigger than that. As long as I know I’ve done my best… *hello kitty mode*
I mean, what is the worst that can happen? I pack my bags and go back home.
But… I’m not done with China yet. Not just yet.
Like another friend said, “KARMA. If it is not happening now, it will eventually happen.”
What goes around, will always come around…
*deep deep breaths*